I melted down a few weeks ago. My mind raced with anxious thoughts, and I couldn’t sleep. Lately, life has felt unstable and uncertain. You see, all three children left this fall, and we live in the midst of a home renovation. October marks six months.
After twelve years, we sold our family’s home in March and bought another one in April. Before moving in though, we lived in a friend’s condo for a month while we tore down kitchen walls. Since April, every room has completely remodeled or simply painted. Among the major changes: A roof removed and replaced, 3 walls removed, and 2 bathrooms created. Minor inconveniences persisted like drywall dust, no air conditioning and then no heat, and mice. And of course, the endless stream of workmen in and out.
Not only is life chaotic in the midst of this renovation, but my unfocused mind shifts from the house to the children to writing and back to the house.
The Unstable Me
The old me, dealt with stress and instability in unhealthy ways. As a young woman I turned to alcohol abuse, food abuse, or body abuse. Years later, the cycle continued when I shouted at my children or husband, pouring out pent up anger and stress. Sometimes, instead of shouting, I cried or felt hopeless when stress pressed down, and I couldn’t breath.
These days, I am finding relief in the midst of instability by turning to Jesus. When turmoil stirs up, I tell Him, “I am hanging onto You. Fight for me.“ Believing Him and His promises brings peace and rest. He is the eye in my hurricane. He is the only calm place to stand when my world is quaking.
Is something shaking your world? A job loss? A divorce? A distant child? A recent loss? Health challenges?
Rooted Women are Stable Women
Here’s our Rooted mantra:
Despite the chaos around me, I’m determined to live this life rooted in Jesus.
“He is your constant source of stability…” (Isaiah 33:6 NET)
Here at Rooted, the blog community, we are growing deeper roots. Do you have a story about being rooted in the midst of chaos? We’d love to hear it!